.Friday, July 16, 2010 @ 10:27 PM Y
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sore throat still haven heal yet ... feeling kinda uncomfortable .... hia ~
today was BORING !!! chinese was using computer cuz got 2 period :) mdm chang let us use the computer to play the ( hua wen sui pa sui) haha kinda boring thou.... then art class is equally boring.. during assembly had some kind of competition ? well, my ex was kinda bhb.... -.-" but still he won a trophy. then its my turn to take the prize on stage .. was kinda blur at that time... i just heared they called my name so i just go up to take it and walk off . ahahaha kinda embarrassing.. then band played new song... yet again, i got 1st clarinet... even though i got the melody part i stil don fing it challenging enough... but we had band exam today.. testing our skills on our instruments and the knowledge on the rhythm... then went home for tuition until 10 plus.....
conclusion : ahh, i just feel uncomfortable...
i just don get it... i really cant tell if you're acting or its genuine.. or sometimes naive or just plain stupid ! yes, i did forgive you. but my trust in you as lowered a lot. if you want it back , you'ld have to stop acting and start being yourself ! i don't think i'll ever trust you again. actually the reason i forgave you was because of ***** but after thinking deeply for a long time, you've hurt me deeply. i'm sorry, there will always be a scar in my heart which i'll always rmb....
well, when i first found out that you liked "her" ... my heart was beating very fast... i don't know why... then i desperately wanted to know if its true or not... that's why i was so pissed when you didnt answer my question.. sorry... well, when i said i was relieved .. you asked why... i said its because i thought you would like the person i didnt like right ? well, it was kinda a excuse... there's another reason behind it :)
i'm afraid to lose you :D ILY
