.Thursday, July 8, 2010 @ 9:06 PM Y
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aites.. today was sort of a tiring and surprising day for me. good news !!! i became the student conductor :p means i'll have to conduct the band whenever our conductor is not around :p
first thing in the morning...someone told me to forgive her. but i really just cant get myself to do it , i do not want to be hurt once again... once bitten twice shy. i'm afraid that the same thing might happen again.. i really am... right now, i need someone who is willing to be my listening ear , giving me advices and giving me a shoulder to lean on. :(
i have not forgiven you for you are still under observation....but i'll try to treat you as a close friend. i'll try only... everytime i look/talk to you... i always have the feeling that i might be hurt once again. i don not want it to repeat again.... and i think of the stuffs that you betrayed me and other nagative things... i really.... wish to forgive you but i just cant do it... all the bad stuffs that you did to me still linger in my head ... unable to delete it like a computer...i'm really afraid that there would be a repetition :((
i do not like my school life now... full of betrayers and ppl who likes to bad-mouth others. why cant those ppl just keep their comments to themselves and not go around poisoning other ppl minds with their opinions ?!
well, yea this is the real me.. strong on the outside fragile on the inside... i do keep my emotions to myself because i do not want you guys to worry.... i act happy in school but at home i'm the exact opposite.
